End of an era

[slycat]

As some of you may know, I am moving back in with my parents in exactly 2 weeks time. This is my main reason for feeling down and more stressed than usual but now that I've got what's happening sorted, I feel much better for it. I'm going to use this as an oppertunity to get myself a job in Southampton area, quit my London job as soon as I can (No way am I going back to that commute longer than I have to - that job is NOT worth it), learn to drive possibly (finally) and eventually move out again (Not to London this time - been there, done that).

I know this has come about quite suddenly; what happened is that nonezumi/Glis and ruination/Ruin thought we were on a 12 month contract for the letting. However, it was infact 6 months. If you read Glis and Ruin's LJs you will know that they have grown tired of London life so I guess that this is their oppertunity to move out. Also they want to be able to live together as a couple without someone else around (me). I guess I havn't done myself any favours through not sorting out cooking arrangements and silly little things like that but I guess those silly little things are what matter in reality to some people...

I have come to call this place my home but I guess it's never really been MY home. I mean the living room is entirely made up of Glis and Ruins stuff - not one thing of mine is in there. I think it will be easier to feel comfortable calling a place mine when my TV and my furniture is in the living room and my stuff is in the kitchen and things are the way I want rather than how someone else wants. I know that at the moment, that wouldn't have really been practical due to fundage but mentally, thats how it feels.

I'm not staying in London because, a) I don't want to live alone (Not that I could afford it other than a complete shithole anyways) and, b) I don't want to live with folks I don't know - I'm a private person and very shy around those I don't know.

I have enjoyed my time in London. I've enjoyed the company, I've appreciated the independancy but on the flip side, I'm tired of the stuffy commute, I'm tired of the "Rat Race" but most of all, tired of having no friends anywhere in the local area, having no-one to go out with much of the time, essentially being quite lonely.

I'm looking forward to moving back now.... Wish me luck.