I can't really put in to writing how I am feeling at the moment. I'm currently feeling the pains of physical stress but I can't really say why. In about a day and a half, my stuff is being taken back to my old home, to my parents.
No longer will I be living independantly, I will be going back to a place where my privacy can be invaded and can't feel comfortable with expressing myself as I'd like. On the flipside of course, I'll have to do less work in the house, I will no longer need to go to the supermarket to buy food, I will no longer need to worry about being insecure about being able to afford to live there and I'll also be around those that love me again...
Where I go from there, I can't tell. I need to quit the job I'm in and get a new one as soon as possible and stop being lazy about the whole matter. I understand that I have some unique skills that no-one else in my company possess and I am very good at my job when motivated but I have been getting worse and worse due to lack of motivation, boredom, lack of learning new skills. When I explain this to the managerial staff, they just say, you've got to tell us what you want to do and prove you can do it but I guess I don't put much effort into doing this because I know that nothing will change for me in the company for at least a year - they simply cant afford to move me elsewhere in the company without letting someone else go...
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OK, so I had today off work so I could prepare for packing tomorrow (Basically get boxes and stuff) but also take time to relax, go to Bromley and do a bit of window shopping (Which I've not done in ages). I was half-heartedly going to get some perscription sunglasses before I go off to America in 2 and a bit weeks so I had a look around. Vision Express caught my eye (Excuse the pun) as they were doing a range of designer sunglasses for £99. As always with these things, there was nothing I wanted in the range and so the helpful shop assistant said I could get a normal fram and they can put the tinted lenses in those. He almost talked me into getting a new pair of glasses and a second pair for sunglasses when I asked about transitional lenses. So after all that, I paid out a shocking £259 for a new pair of glasses. The ones I went for were a nice small yet not too small, angular, pewter pair by Police with grey transitional lenses (They change from clear to grey as they absorb the UV rays). I couldn't find a web site for the brand so I can't stick a photos on here for you. Of course, I should have the glasses now as they make the glasses there and then in one hour. however, when I came back to collect the glasses, I discovered that they had broken the lense while making them and didn't have any more of that style lense in stock. I would have to wait up to 10 days for them to get stock of new lenses. I've not cancelled as they explained that they could get the stock in tomorrow but I think if they don't come in tomorrow, I should cancel them and get them elsewhere...
Um, yeah, I finally got some boxes from Somerfields and Tescos but unfortunately they're not that big. Probably get my dad to bring some larger ones when he comes down on Sunday. I'll be packing all my stuff tomorrow. I still don't know if I should go home on Sunday or stay an extra week as it'll cost less but all my stuff will be in Southampton... Could probably get away with leaving my computer here and taking absolutely everything else back but I dunno! Argh! Must make this decision tomorrow.
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